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Thursday, 3 December 2009

To chadwick 2nd

The Nameless One

Have any soul wonder or wander toward the dark path? Have any seen and back forth earth to tell the stories? Were they mentioning not to be tell or just freaking afraid to what would happen now and then. Just how human may have afraid looking at mirror, but they do not. What we, us, you, him, her and I afraid was our self! The one completely removed mask, far away from shelter and protective layers constructed and built up by what so call knowledge. People are not stupid not even a retarded one as they somehow find a way protect their own fragile part from being harm. Maybe or maybe not we were too clever to have forced ourselves to the edge of hell and then finding a way new invention to keep us save or some just hoping others would do so like their hope or pillar of light!


What is the most beautiful thing some ask? Human I answered. They were ugly as well. Let us get back to the mirror thing shall we? Mirror… a reflective layer. Revealing our weaknesses is what it does. Wicked is not it? How hard have we all try to hide ourselves from the outer world of not our own, yet it did accomplished its job – revealing us. The beautiful mask we have been wearing as a part of our limb, it break the spell, embarrassing us. How sometimes … we would want to kill someone when they take our mask off, but could we do so. We have been tie to the endless lines of words – laws. That is a good one, to prevent further butchering of human by … human. Without them, those lying on pool of blood … may have been you or me.


Masking ourselves may have been the reason for war! To have masked our weakness we wedge war upon ourselves, no matter the cost it takes. Looking back things may be foolish, but some never regrets. They get what they want; they pay what they have to. An eye for an eye, a tooth for a tooth; people get what they deserved for their act. For example, you kill a person so he will not suffer but still it has been count that YOU KILL HIM! That has to say we are all sinner except when we were just born. Maybe being a newborn baby is a sin too as we make our mother feel pain … that not good... I think. (=.=) .


Masking yourself is not a bad thing to do; being a sinner at start was not for you to choose and they were not your fault. So, live your life to the fullest.



The moon rose, night curtain falls in taking over the evening sun. The villagers in Naim fasten their pace, packing their things or necessity back home. A boy was still outside and his mother noticed this. She dragged his beloved child back in their safety nest. He refused.


He was only nine, questioning why he would need to do so that he cannot go out at night ever since he was born. Simply yet concrete, his mother told him that night is dangerous.


However, he knew but he wanted another answer.


The last word he heard from his simple mother was Demon. Why was that? His mother fell onto the ground, blood simply jet out from her back. Wounds of claws and clothes tear open by the sharp claws. A dark figure then spurt out from the dark vanished before him; he captures its whole image.


A smile is what he sees, a smile is what he remembers, and cruelty is what he knew. A smile he sees and remembers was of two smiles, one of his mother and the other from the figure.


For three days, he cried, and soon his tears run dry. No one wants him in the village. They accused him for his mother death and so did he blame himself. Where or who was his father, people may question? Long gone, gone to who knows where, heaven or hell - he do not give a damn, as he do not know who he is. To the villagers, he was a sinner ever since he was born, not for being bad but only being indifferent.


He always wanted to know what is out there, what would the road looks like when it is dark. For century, the traditions not being out at night passes down perfectly until he came to this little world of them, breaking the unspoken spell may mean death but they let him go for he was still small.


A cemetery for his mother, built beside her house but no home for him – the sinner. Confused and sad yet he had to go. He pack the food left at home and started his nowhere journey. He was shoo out from the village and they swear never to let him set a foot at here again. That was the only solution for he is too young to bear any law of the village held for centuries (under age).


He walks toward the forest in the north where the villagers once said, the demon lives and dwell there. He has no idea why he goes there. Some feeling jerks in his heart, attracting him toward it. He did not have the feeling of being afraid in his heart but somehow the aura, smell and appearance were familiar. He was sad of his mother death but the figure posses something he feel close.


Slowly, gradually he walks into the forest. Pushing through the overgrown bushes, grass grew perfectly fine there and trees competing with each other trying to get their daily need. The forest was deadly quiet despite the look of it from the outside. Leafy green leaves and mosses hanging around, somewhere in his heart were draw to these green. Carefully, he makes his way through the bushes. Finding a little path that never been take and now wild grass overgrown but still there. Catching the wind, he picked up speed and strode his way into the inner heart of the forest.


Hours after, he lost his way or properly mention – he did not even care about the way he took. Walking blindly at the forest is what he did. He took out some bread and ate it under a huge tree. The moon raises again, clouds closing in and fog flowing around like water free flowing. He was tired so he took a sleep under the tree.


“Ah, what’s the bright light?” he asked as he supports himself up.


He opened his eyes survey his surrounding. He noticed he was not under the tree, there were lights and he was in a house. The stench of dried blood and fresh blood mixed the room. He stood up, trying to find a way out. There is a chair, made of wood at the left corner of the room and a hole beside it. To the other corner of the room, there were racks of book. Those books are written in ancient language, not hard to read but slow though.


A man covered in black cape with a hood, perfectly fine to cover of his face, revealing only his hand to the boy. He saunter his way to the wooden chair, facing his way to the child.


He sat there silently watching the boy. The boy noticed him and turned his sight toward him. They stared each other and the boy asked “why?”



Dancing under the velvet moon, the rain it dance! Cloudy skies, slowly covering the moon as the rain pour down harder, as if mud drops falling from nowhere. Falling down from skies like meteor, it pushes its way through the thick canopy, stomping on the forest ground. Enriching the life of nature, it did as always. Absorbing the rich water, the fauna does, stretching their limb toward the skies wishing for more, for plants has desire to live on like human does.


Looking into the rain, people confuse, people feel sad. Every now and then, rain pour signifying who knows what, still, over a million people signify it as a sad event whenever rains fall. At funeral rains fall, it is weird. At the end of cruel battle rainfall, comforting killing is for good. People think what they think, ignoring others. Being selfish is the only way human live. Supporting each other is the same goes to selfish categories, to be clear whomever they support was the only reason they have been living on until now.


Rain is a confusing event. Looking into it you saw nothing but everything of nature. Its like empty vessel filled with something you cannot see but only to touch it or feel it. Nature is simple itself. Humans were the only thing complicated, not to mention they were too complicated. People were like burning fire and their souls were like thread. Burning too bright that bring along self-destruction. They knew it but they ignore it. Then, here goes the cycle of life … never ending. People cursed the nature but who knew that nature might as well curse us for destroying their simple cycle. Breaking invention, unbeaten knowledge form this world … now the elves, human, undead, dragon, demon and angel may live in peace but how long will this last. Nature has its desire, remember!

This day, this rain, this very moment in the deep forest in Naim signifying LIVES ON.


Blood spilled; the boy fell on his pool of blood, stupor he is breathing heavily. The one man he wanted to kill stood in front of him, watching. A ferocious, extremely gigantic wolf stood beside him. The wolf has black fur and a grayish tail. It has razor sharp teeth, strong claws.


A magic circle beside the boy suddenly broke off after a strike of lightning. Another wolf appeared. This one has two tails, and a silver-coated fur. It is also half a size of the wolf standing beside the man.

Out of sudden, the black wolf charge at it. It dodges the attack and fire a ball of fire from its mouth. The fireball pierced through the rain. It evaporated every little drops of rain droplet into vapors. The black wolf did not dodge, instead, it cast a barrier. After the explosion from the clashing of magic against magic, the silver wolf sprung out from the left and tearing its way through the barrier reaching for the black wolf.


“You’ve much yet to learn, my boy!” it vanishes and came slashing out from the silver wolf back. Its razor sharp claws tear through the fur into the flesh. Red crimson blood jets out.


Staring back at it claws and paws ready for another bloody fight.


“Who called you?” it asked. Surveying the surrounding, wondering if the summoner would appear.

The silver wolf ignored the question, focusing on the battle.


“The boy” The man replied. His eyes focused on him. He was examining the ground beside him. The ground was burn to a total black coal. Water droplets evaporated as soon as they touch that very ground.


“That is very interesting, indeed.” It focused its eyes on the boy face, wondering if it saw him somewhere. The rains slowly tuned down but wind raced up.


“He is not what you think my friend.” He turned and walked away, picking up his cloak on the earthen floor, soak in water and covered with mud “A half blood.” He wears his already-dirty cloak and move on.


“Guess that settles It.” it quickly followed up.

To chadwick ^^

The Nameless One . 2003vr.doc

Wednesday, 4 November 2009

Tuesday, 20 October 2009

medical checkup

i'm totally screwed as i've been suffering from "out of breath" symptoms for several times now. so went to check doc for check up. Done my ECG, ultrasound scan and X-ray. my heart has no problem and so the same goes to lungs and to be accurate i didn't do the lung full check up so maybe the problem is there. therefore if the symptoms occur again i am advice to go for lungs check up

Thursday, 8 October 2009

To alleviate suffer from this world

How can we alleviate suffering in this world?

Take a look out the window you have cornered yourself in into the outside world. Examine carefully your surrounding world and soon enough you will find that the world around you is suffering without you realizing it. By then you will eventually feel that everyone is wearing a mask covering them or at least those who are true to their problem always have a frown on their forehead with those common three linear lines on it. So, think again. There are people in need in this world suffering from this so called world that we have built. We must never blame the government for this kind of suffering as this is not their fault. Government objective was to provide us better life which we fell deep within the comfortable sensation and thus repaying us with suffering in long-term debt. For example, deforestation in order to provide shelter for the ever-growing population is somehow results in pollution which endanger our own! So here we are to find out the ways to alleviate suffering from this world!

As for a starter, let us look at the scope of poverty which experienced by millions of people, especially people from Africa. Poverty is the condition of lacking basic human needs such as nutrition, clean water, health care, clothing, and shelter because of the inability to afford them. In other word, the main reason is lack of money and occupation. Without occupation they don’t get any money which in turn inability to buy their needs. About 25 000 people die every day of hunger or hunger-related causes, according to United Nations. According to the United Nation, there are plenty of foods in the world for everyone but still there are hungry people out there trapped in severe poverty and lack of money to buy enough food to nourish themselves. Being constantly malnourished they become weaker and often sick. The flows of this event are somewhat a downward spiral and slowly it devours their lives away like a withering flower which is constantly not watered. I strongly believe that we can alleviate poverty by the form of food as food is the basic necessity among all and water as well. Providing food to African population which is suffering from hunger could help saving lives besides alleviating suffering. Instead of just providing food, people with wealth should or must provide them shelter and education. We must not take them as meaningless lives because if they had a choice to get their hands at their basic necessity they would be a big help in providing mans power. With a job or occupation, they could survive.

People experienced anger, sadness, joy, remorse, funny, amusing, and much more emotion. Emotions are the inner things we had inside us as a human being. Without them, the world around us does not seem bright and sound. In fact, emotions make human special. On the other hand, uncontrollable emotions may cause severe suffering. For example, Billy was at his garden mowing the overgrown grass but his mower does not move. He tried changing its accessories and done all sort of maintenance but still it won’t budge or start! Then Billy was frustrated and angry, he lifted his leg and sidekick the mower. This does not make him feel good as he hurt himself because he let his angry out of control. This is a simple example while there are more which is critical. We are not going to touch that as it would be a long story. So, let us discuss the way of lighten emotion-cause suffering. Psychiatric which was good enough provide people witch cannot control their anger advice. We can learn to control our anger and we will do what we can do by teaching others how to control them. To control our anger or emotion we must first count to ten so we give our body and mind to calm down. Then, we identify the cause or root of that sort of emotion. For example, Billy root of anger is he is not satisfied with his mower. So, after identifying the root we analyze them and after some time we would eventually find that it is amusing. Seeing things from different angle will relief anyone from suffering rather than clinging onto the problem! Try asking yourself, do you feel good clinging onto some grudge u had against someone or something?

“This land is so rich, why should we suffer like this?” by A.Samad Said is well said. I myself couldn’t agree more to this statement. This world is rich with resources or rather what we call talented people. Still, there is no improvement to the pollution we had suffered! They are doing their best we assume but what if we are the one who is not willing to help ourselves? Take a look around our neighborhood, the government has tried their best to help saving the world and reduce green house effect. We as the people of each country did not support the 3R – reduce, recycle and reuse. They did not support in the way of action like throwing things that can be recycle as they like. Our people lack of consciousness about world crisis. Even if they do, people don’t learn just by knowing. People learned by experiencing it so government sector and public sector should instill these consciousnesses by hanging word of motivation in the office or put it in some TV program.

To alleviate suffering from this world is not an easy job without everyone cooperation. There is more type of suffering out there hidden at the edge or corner of the society. To help lessen the suffering we need something concrete, we need something attractive … we need action! The suffering will only be lessen by brilliant action!

Wednesday, 19 August 2009

Read this if u think ur brain is pro ~

Can U read this?

fi yuo cna raed tihs, yuo hvae a sgtrane mnid, oto. Cna yuo raed tihs? Olny 55 plepoe tuo fo 100 anc.


i cdnuolt blveiee taht I cluod aulaclty uesdnatnrd waht I wsa rdanieg. Eht phaonmneal pweor fo eht hmuan mnid, aoccdrnig ot a rscheearch ta Cmabrigde Uinervtisy, ti dseno't mtaetr ni waht oerdr eht ltteres ni a wrod rae, teh olny iproamtnt tihng si taht het frsit nad lsat ltteer eb ni teh rghit pclae. eht rset nac eb a taotl mses nad uoy nca sitll raed ti whotuit a pboerlm. Tihs si bcuseae eht huamn mnid deos otn raed ervey lteter yb istlef, utb het wrod sa a wlohe. Azanmig uhh?


If you can read this, your brain is 50% faster
than those who can't
ONLY FORWARD IF YOU CAN READ

Wednesday, 8 July 2009

Worst day in my driving life

for hell once i "kiss" my teacher car and block the traffic . . .

...

screw lorong kecil !

Thursday, 21 May 2009

1 Litre of Tear

ok fine , holy crap i mean. That movie they say its nice and sad . So, i wonder how good was it that so much of my friends go crazy bout it and the girls ... the say its so damn romantic !

So fine i said to myself, i started download it and so i watch it.

Ok, here the answer for the question i ask and i answer myself.(am i nuts? answering question that i ask myself)

The movie .... it .... wa...was nice , ya sad indeed. the theme song it suitable ^^

Saturday, 16 May 2009

TJ gay moment


this 'gay' pic happen when that bastard joey photoed me n TJ during the holiday. Curse you Joey.

Friday, 8 May 2009

Ah~ A funny drama .... =.-''

Just click on the title to go to the page ^.^ wakaka (>>.<)>

Thursday, 7 May 2009

Busy

with the form six starting i'll be very busy with things. haiz ~ english course , japanese basic course , form six and maybe some work on sales ... not a sales that involve risk though ... interested can ask me bout it ^^

Tuesday, 21 April 2009

PPL request to see me ~.~


its me fisshing dunnoe wat stupid fish =.-'' around TJ house ... forget when

Frenz design .... kawaai !


this is an artwork done by Rydha ... quite a guy isn't he? its simple (>>.<)>

Saturday, 18 April 2009

18th April 2009 pc fair

Went to pc fair with jia shen~ soon enough reach the main arena and the weirdest thing happen =.-''

He actually bring snack there and eat !! in the arena where people were busy surveying electronic item .... i can't believe it , that is just too funny (>>.<)>

Another thing which i won't be able to believe was ... i have the snack together with him =.-'' my god !
He bought a cute mouse , its not mouse but 'mouse' , mind that would you?

Me myself have bought a new cooling fan and a laptop skin~ the skin its kinda of funny >.< wahaha

I don't have a photo of it ~ sorry ~ (>~.~)> no camera~

Sunday, 5 April 2009

new things

hey everyone !! I get my new spec on 5th April ! changing myself slowly~ yes and i did by changing spec and also today is my 1st day in for cambridge intermediate writing class and it was fun the lecturer was kind ... he allowed me to read others essay b4 i went home !! wat a gain !! TJ if u read this pls teach me some coding or programming a little for basic knowledge pls man ... i noe u dun even care bout my blog since u've got girlfrenz !! damn ppl are so cold these day of years when they get girlfriend !! damn it

Saturday, 4 April 2009

Cambridge

I went to cambridge today around 12pm n started my lesson from 1pm to 5.30pm, it was fun. Lecturer was all foreigner and they were funny n kind. They jokes when the mood of the class getting low.
The classes was not too crowd and the lecturer paid lots of attention to the students, they do not likes those who annoyed the classes !! They are very serious about the students learning.
They make sure that everything they teach was absorb as much as we can !! It's nice. Next time go toilet say nature's call (polite way >.<) or u can just say excuse me cause its private matter !! haha

Friday, 27 March 2009

Participating in cambridge

March , 28, 2009 ... get my self up for undang-undang test.
-Get on to the test but unfortunately, something going wrong and all i get was 41/40 and juz for ur knowledge-- 42 is the result for passing the exam =.-'' .This is so unfair .
-After having my lunch, my mother and i went to CES EDUCATION GROUP and i took the English course.
- Get an intermediate for the course so i started at G2 haha ...